Heart Ache

So i have had the best week ever hanging out with the most amazing friend ever. My friend Caitlin came to stay with me to help me get through this week since it was the week that my momma passed away a year ago. I have had my moments where i wanted to cry but i kept strong and held it all in. I know that when i do cry for a little bit it helps me deal with everything a little better or i should say makes me feel a little bit better for a little while. And now it is halloween and i don't even want to do anything. I hate feeling like this and it has not gone away at all since i lost her. She was the best thing that has ever happened to me. I thank god every day for giving me the chance to get to know someone so special and somebody i could call my mother. A special lady that would take the shirt off her back for anyone in need. I know i have wrote about this before but i truly feel blessed to have know such a special person. It won't be much longer and we will meet again but until then i will know that she is in a better place and is watching over me and my family. I am gonna try to make the best of what i have left. I just want to thank all my family and friends for showing how much they care. Because losing my mom has been the hardest thing i have ever gone through. I do not wish it on anybody. Love you always and forever mom RIP.

The Longest Year

One year ago today, i lost the most amazing person in my life. Someone so amazing and so special god thought he needed her more. The bestest friend/mother a girl could ever ask for. She was always there for me no matter what. And no matter the choices i made even if she didn't approve of them she never made me feel like anything i could ever do would make her stop loving me any less. She has touched my heart in so many ways. And i could not thank god more for letting me have such a special lady in my life that i could call my mother. I love you with all my heart and soul, from here to the moon and back. I just keep reminding myself that this is not the end. This is the begining of something so special for her that i will one day experience myself. And know that one day we will be together again and she will be waiting for me when i get there. With a open heart full of love i will be her little princess again. I love you mom RIP your baby girl!!

My New Bedding!!

I love love love my new bedding, it just makes my room look so much better. The material is soft and very cuddly. I sleep so good now. When before I was either to hot or to cold. This bedding is just right lol. I love it so much. Enough with that!!

Fall Is In The Air!!

Fall is in the air, the air is crip and the smell of cold weather is approaching. It quickly snuck up on us and i mean quick. It went from being in the 80s to straight 40s and 50s. I love this time of year when its time to decorate for Halloween which we started today. We have also put all the summer clothing away and got out all the winter clothes and hoodies. This feeling doesn't last long cause i hate to be cold. Once i get cold i can't get warm again all day long. Wyatt is going to be Spiderman this year. We bought him a costume about a week ago. This kid wears it every chance he gets. Which means by the time Halloween actually gets here its gonna need some fixing. He has wore it so much there is already a hole in it.

Talon is going to be a spider this year, but we havn't gotten a picture of him in his just yet. We are doing really good and can't wait till its time to decorate our house with Christmas stuff. My most favorite holliday of the year.

6 months!!

Today i took both of my babies to see the Dr. They have had a terrible cold with stuffy and runny noses. Poor boys. So i loaded them up in the car and away we went. The dr. said that both of them had  bronchial infections or more commonly know as bronchitis. He quickly put them on an antibiotic and told me to bring them in if it gets any worse. Especially litte Talon cause it could turn into RSV. Something that no mother ever wants to see their babies go through. In the mean time while we were there are little Talon will be 6 months in about a week. So we went ahead and did his 6 month well baby check. Here is his results!!

Weight :  15lbs

Height : 25 inches (50th percentile)

Head :  18 inches

My baby is not a little baby anymore he is getting so big!!